Thursday, May 14, 2009

Frankenstein Monster

A world given to normalcy
at my passing watches warily
my eyes as dry as desert sand
they think i do not understand
the emotions that they come to feel
a weight that causes me to kneel
an inner light that goes unknown
behind a mask of flesh and bone
science gone wrong, abomination
the darker side of man's creation
to wander forth and ever be
iconic of man's duplicity
a nomadic trek of haunted steps
a wait to see God's promise kept
that though unnatural the birth
he least in me might find some worth
my days to me fragmented dreams
a patchwork heart with nightmare seams
love from none to spare upon
this life-given automaton


I burned every memory that we’d ever made
The corners were charring as it all began to fade
Flame consumed it bit by bit, slowly getting rid of all of it
From the ashes rose a rain of red embers drifting ‘round
An armada of tiny phoenixes from the blackened mound
Those fireflies with twilight eyes took with them all the ties that night
Floating away through plumes of gray, a cloak worn on the summer sky
And smells of the smoke seemed to soak my clothes like dye,
But that’s okay, somehow now it all feels right


Child, you are safe
from every mistake i've ever made
i've grown up from you,
but through it all you're still here too
we're stuck together in this pit
but you've helped me get over it
so many times i've tried to climb
and you've thrown me a life-line
over and over through our life-time
i've grabbed and pulled at sturdy rope
woven from your misplaced hope in me
and from it drew security
so that no matter how fucked up life gets
i can be a shield, and walk with no regrets


smoke whispered from the silhouettes of trees that lined the sunset
the last burning rays of the good days that seemed to mark my mindset
but we didn't even mind it
with Bics raised high we touched the sky and set it all ablaze
and wandered through the haze on a trail we blazed ourselves


Don't really know what i was thinking
'til i stopped and sat there blinking at the day
never saw the light that was shining down
dancing on my face and this half-formed frown
as my thoughts turned and drifted far away
fingers clenching at distant notions
my face clouded with mixed emotions
feet absently finding grip on hard-packed dirt
the breeze cutting like blades right through my shirt
as i rose and thought of nothing else to say
how can i reply, look in your eyes
when nothing that i know will make you stay?...
lips frozen like the winter air
eyes burning begin to blur
an expression that we never hope to wear
a note left behind without a single word
and dropped suddenly, a lead weight in my hand
a list of reasons that you could understand

8-count rain

With eyes to advertise so much
disappointment raining from the skies
these drops that fall and hit the wall
in torrents percieved with ev'ry sense
so rain, rain, please go away
and sunny skies please take the place
of vacant spots i've seen inside
thoses irises so cool and deep
where thoughts swim by and feelings sleep and hide
who look at clouds of yesterday
with a blank masklike expression
concealing inner tension
trying to blink off shrouds of grey
well, come what may, this i will say:
rain, rain, please don't stay, go away
atmosphere that brought you here is far behind
don't stay indoors and draw the blinds
watching and waiting for blue skies
a color to match a cool shade
i truly hope you'll recognize
it only takes one step out the door
to know what we have umbrellas for
glance at the ground around your feet
at mirrors made and formed from this
and reflections are all we'll see
it does not always have to be

Friday, May 8, 2009

perhaps when i have more inspired thoughts on other subjects i will try writing articles.


These feelings that i kept inside
the floodgates broke, they're open wide
and i just wanna drink it all away
my face feels numb, my thoughts are dumb
and unconsciousness just won't seem to come to me
these dark circles that i try to hide
seem constant as the incoming tide
feet sinking in the sand, standing facing out to sea
i stand there on the windblown shore
not sure that i care anymore
empty bottles line the path that led me here
it's really kind of lonely when you're alone and out of beer
they say that misery loves company
but no one's standing next to me
when did all the peopl leave, and i stop believing
i guess it all just goes to show
how much i'd only hope to know
so fuck it all i'm going back inside
i'm drunk as hell and have nowhere to go
because friends that brought me here have left
and the streetlights don't really seem to reach
this sandy beach where only shadows seem to grow

It's not all i hope to post up here, but it's something i wish to share.

*untitled draft*

It started raining suddenly
and i could see so clearly
all that you held so dearly in your heart
revelation hit me with a start
understanding like the lightning to the skies
as drops dripped slowly down your face
i thought in new light on past days
and of the light that lit your eyes that night
you chose to see what you believed
but my beliefs were different
and i'd thought it was self-evident
thught i guess now evidently not
because it seems surprise has caught me
in a place i never thought i'd be
we're standing here and cheeks begin to burn
you've given me something i'm not sure i can return

quite simply, i write poetry among other things


You try to justify your lies
it's not on you, it's nothing new
these threads you weave to hypnotize
the web you spin and live within
has begun to trap you too
bad habits have become your prison
you say you don't want to be used
but look who's using who
what's a hypocrite to do?
it looks to me like self-defense or your greatest pretense
that you stay there in your self-made cell
and lie even to yourself as well